A guy the just doesnt quite fit in...

back at school

2004-01-19T18:03:19Z

Well, i got back to school yesterday around noon thanks to Reid and his dad. I packed all night saturday night/sunday morning (as well as watched a few movies and stuff) but ended up not sleeping at all. Once i got to my dorm room i felt i had to rearrange stuff a little bit so i made a huge mess and then felt like i had to make sure it was all cleaned up b4 my roommate came (who still hasnt arrived yet). So instead of going to bed right away when i got here yesterday, i spent like 7 hours on and off trying to arrange my room while watching some movies and the football game on tv. After the football game the president of the paintball club invited me over to his house for some beverages and a movie. I gladly took him up on his offer and went over to drink a few drinks ive never had b4 (brandy old fashion, a polar bear shot, and a very very strong bloody mary) as well as some drinks i have had b4 (rum and coke). All in all it was fun and we ended up talking a lot about paintball and it was great. Definately better than sittig in my dorm room by myself all night...if this is anything of a hint of how this semester will be, perhaps i will actually begin to enjoy being here a little more. I dont mean that i wanna get drunk all the time or nething, but its nice to unwind and chill with some cool people every now and then.
Today ive got to figure out why i have an Incomplete grade for my Psych class for first semester, grab my books, and get ready for classes to start tomorrow. I think ill also head over the the PAC (Pioneer Activity Center = Gym) and see whats up. I wanna atleast start running regularly and i guess they have treadmills somewhere in there..lol. Otherwise i know where the quarter mile indoor track is, thatll work.
But anyway, im out. I gotta go shower and eat.

Mentholmint Schnapps

2004-01-16T06:46:42Z

MMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. This shit is great. Really. There was only a little bit left (like a quarter of the bottle) so i figured i would finish it off. Dr. McGillicuddy's is the best. Lol. Neway...ive decided that im not gonna make ne typing or spelling corrections while typeing this so i can see how bad i did later.
WEll yesterday up notrh was great fun. We ended up taking nancy with us. She is a junior but didnt care about missing school so its was all good. We didnt drink as much as we wanted to but we didnt do bad for only 3 people. Im pretty sure i driank more that reid or nancy but reid was prolly mighty close. AHHHHHH.
I went to ren's house at 7:30 to help her with what i figured would be a mere hour or so of homework. But that hour turned into like almost four fucking hours...lol. The fucking part is just for emphasis...not like being pissed off or nething. I didnt really mind..i had to change my plans and shit to beable to go over there...plus my car is dead so i had to manage to steal my mom's car for 4 hrs but it was all good. I hadnt really seen much of ren since i left he house earlier this week so its a good thing i got to spend some more time with her as well as try to help her with her school stuff. WE didnt actually finish her homeowrk either, she has a basketball game tomorrow and had to get to bed so she is gonna try to finish up tomorrow during study hall. I was thinking of going down there to help her out but i might be hooking up with brooke for coffee or lunch or something...idk yet. We will hve to see.
i think soon im gonna go outside and try to hook a chagare--charger-- up to my car battery and see if i can start it. I really would like to beable to drive places tomorrow...cuz it would suck being stuck at home on my last day of total freedom in wausau.
ne way...i completely forgot what i was gonn atype for you all. And when i say u all, i mean the two people that will accidentally read this far. but ya...i think im going back to school on saturday now. I am seeing if reid will drive me down so that my parents dont have to. plus then reid and i will have something to do and get to hang out a bit longer..i prolly wont see him for a couple of months and really hes the only guy that i had a lot of fun with while ive been at home.

and on a random tangent...i want to write a story. A culmination of my thoughts, feeling and emotions. All of me and my output formed into a great piece that many will enjoy....but the frank and blunt truth is im not too much of a writer. i write on my feelings very insctinctually...so i may start a strong story and try to pick it back up a few days later when i fgeel totally different and have no fucking clue what i was writing about or where i was going iwth the story. that, my friends, is not the fucking way to write a damn story. i have like 20 sotir--stories-- that ive started and havent had ne luck completing them to the level of greeatness i wish.

but fuck that....im not done with it...im just over it for now...i did write one story last year that i really liked at the time...although now i think i could add a lot and change alot..but idk if it would be good. i wrote it for a imaginative writing class and felt very good when i recived a 100% on it from my essentric (no fucking clue if its spelled riwght) english teacher. he is demanding and normally hates everything for one reason or another. but neway...ill let all u little shits read it...if u feel like wasting a lot more time...go for it

(continue on in next post...i had to slipt this shit up for the sidte to let me post everything)

First day

2004-01-14T06:28:31Z

This journal is kinda a replacement for the full fledged website i was trying to maintain recently, but due to the stupid server not allowing me to access and update when i wanted to, i give up. I will probably continue to use the site for pictures and stuff...but from now on my random thoughts and everything else will pretty much run together on this. Easier for me, and maybe a little more access than a website that wasnt searchable on search engines.
But yeah...ive been doing a whole lot of nothing over my month long break from school. Pretty boring stuff. The part of break before the new year and holiday season was pretty busy with the high schoolers being off from school and all kinda of family and friend events. But as my break gets closer to the end the high schoolers that i enjoy hanging out with are back at school, some of my other friends have gone back to college already, and a lot of the other people i know are just as bored as i am.
Today i moved out of my friend, CJ's house and back to my real house for the first time over break. He went back to school and my parents would kind of like to see me a bit before i go back to school so i guess it was meant to be. I kinda liked staying at CJs eventhough he wasnt home, his sister, Ren, is awesome enough to keep me around and his parents arent too bad either. But oh well, im here now, closer the the city and have better chances of finding things to do.
Tomorrow i am gonna go back to my high school to visit one last time before i leave for school. Some people have told me that ive visited a little too much since ive been home (although i really only went once for like 2 hrs) but i wont be able to visit like this next year because they will move out to the new high school. That just wont be the same because the new school isnt MY high school. I wont feel the same and i will have no clue where anything is in the building. Plus its easier to just roam the halls and stuff at the current school. Megan wants me to come to school at 9, visit with her math class and then go to her painting class. Sounds good, but 9am is early..lol..especially when i am used to getting up at 10 or 11. But i will try. I just hope Megan realizes that she is gonna have to take me to lunch too. lol. But after school Reid and i are going to rent some movies, grab some food, and some beverages and head up north to Minoqua for the rest of the day and night. Should come back Thursday afternoon. I am glad i get to leave wausau for a while and do something different. I just feel like a change in scenery could only do good for me. Im getting too used to wausau, so anything is better.
I even want to go back to school early..lol. But we will have to see if that goes anywhere. I will miss a few very specific people a lot...and probably wont see them for a few months, unless i can manage to get a ride home sooner. I just feel really uncontent or troubled by being someplace for too long. Everything gets boring and overwhelming, i just need to see other people, and places and do other things. Even if its only for a day or two. IF all else fails, ill get a ride home and hang out with Ren for a weekend. She's pretty cool and normally welcomes a break from some of her regular aspects of life...like her parents. It seems that since CJ has left for school they are paying more attention, mostly in a bad way, to Ren. So if she wants, ill come home and try to rescue her for a weekend or something. Otherwise ill come home to my real house and just hang out for a weekend. I would definately prefer the former, but the later would work.
Well i think ive added enough for my first day...so i hope your all happy.

Good night!